Meet Connie Gomez: Overcoming anxiety by finding balance in her life

Meet Connie Gomez: Overcoming anxiety by finding balance in her life

In 2012, I had a life-changing moment. I had a panic attack and quit my job. I was faced with a horrible feeling of being beside myself. I was laying in the ladies’ room at my job at that time with a good friend/co-worker trying to calm me down. Paramedics filled the bathroom and asked for any medical history with similar symptoms. As I write this I tingle and get clammy. It’s not fun at all ya’ll! It’s the most horrifying feeling ever. To be in a room but nothing makes sense. Your breathing shortens. Your mind clouds and the moment seems endless. I wasn’t dying so I went from work to an ambulance to sitting in a downtown ER for hours. Before being sent home with the diagnosis of “crazy person”. Not literally but you know what I mean. It was not the most pleasurable experience. And, it was a bit embarrassing.

To this day I see people from my old job and they tell me how that was their last memory of me. Me being wheeled out on a stretcher. It’s not something that I had warning signs for or that slowly came up with different symptoms. I was a Momma of Dos {2}, working full-time with a Husband who was a student and away for almost 2 months in Utah on an Internship assignment. One day I was in “total control”; running a home and getting occasional help with the kids, living alone for 2 months, working as a full-time Assistant Supervisor helping run an office of about 50 employees and “making it all work”. And, the next day I was sitting in my office in a meeting with my supervisor and a group of other employees when I couldn’t breath and had “lost it”.

It’s been over 5 years since that happened. I “took it easy” for a while as recommend by my doctor, but how long can you really “take it easy”? Life is hectic. It’s hard to always be in relax mode. Despite doctor’s recommendations, I never took medication for my “condition”. Instead, I got a new job, less stressful, and started a new type of lifestyle. Still, life is life. These days, the moments of panic come and go. I have learned to control them and manage my day to day with them. I have learned that if a place is too crowded or stuffy and small, I get a little more nervous and anxious. But, overall, I try to make my “overwhelming” situation into one that I can control. This has slowly helped me seek and find my purpose.

I have survived this and many other difficult situations in my life. I have become a Mom of two great little humans who some days drive me nuts and some days show me what my real purpose on this earth is. We often speak of leaving behind a good legacy. I am not perfect. I’ve learned that in my 37 years of life. Nothing will ever be perfect. Timing will never be good enough. We must truly learn to live in the moment and move forward. It’s these lessons that I have learned and try to allow to flow and learn from that are slowly bringing me to my true purpose. Right now, I feel like that is, to be a working wife and mom. One who provides for her children and home and can grow and learn from some of life’s hardest lessons like, you don’t buy your kids Legos. And, you can drink vodka on a Tuesday. I know that regardless of what I may do or don’t do, someone will always be judging me, hating me, or talking about me.

My purpose is to move forward regardless of all this. Right now, my purpose is to be a good happy example for my children as a Mom who obtained a college degree despite coming from a low-income abusive home. To be a good example as a wife who works hard outside the home to not only try and obtain a meaningful career but also pursue those passion that makes me who I am. Regardless of the naysayers or people who think I should “slow down”.

No matter what you consider your purpose, you should live it and live in the moment. Right now, my purpose is to speak my truth, be real, be raw, be truthful as a working mom who does NOT have her life together but pushes through it anyway. I lack so many qualities and at the same moment, I have so many great ones. I try to embrace all of this and keep my head up high. My purpose is to be an example for my children that when people work hard and truly want something in life, everything is possible. My purpose is love who I am, who I have become and who I will be. My purpose is to be nice to those who are nice to me. My purpose is to ignore (and forgive) those who are not nice to me. Truth is negativity and stress are not fun and having them in my life have ruined who I am. I don’t want that in my 40’s. I don’t want to be bitter. My true purpose is to learn how to be happy and how to truly enjoy life and every real-time moment. And, that’s where life has to lead me… to seek and build and create my own personal happiness and fulfilled purpose.

What does purpose mean to you? 

Learning why you were placed on this earth. Your higher calling and what you were meant to accomplish on your journey.

About Connie Gomez:

Connie, better known as Momma of Dos. Born and raised Texan. Grew up in a small Texas town near the Mexican border. Moved to Houston in 1999 to attend the University of Houston where she received her Bachelor’s in Psychology. Has worked in the non-profit and governmental sectors most of her career. These days she works around the clock to provide for her little Mexican-American family both in and outside the home. Her family is composed of her Husband who is also a University of Houston graduate and “Dos” amazing, children; Camila, 7 years old and Santiago, 8. In 2008 Connie created a personal blog which would soon evolve into a Parenting and Lifestyle site. Since then she has been featured on various media outlets such as social media, magazines both print and online as well as on local television shows; where she shares not only her experiences as a Working Momma but also tips & ideas on ways to improve personal and family life. She also volunteers and gives workshops for local organizations. She has been asked to create & participate in several nationwide brand campaigns as well as coordinate local promotional events.
Contact information: 

Twitter: @mommaofdosTX
Instagram: @mommaofdos

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